Puni puni hridayam bicharu kari Dhari Sita kar roop/
Aagem hoyi chali panth tehim jehim aavat narbhoop//
Sati took the guise of Sitaji and went to the path where, as per her, the king of humans, Ramachandraji was coming.
Lacchiman deekh umakrit besha/ Chakit bhaye bhram hridayam bisesha//
Kahi na sakat kacchu ati gambhira/ Prabhu prabhavu janat matidhira//
Lakshaman saw Devi Sati in Sita’s form and felt trepidation rising in his heart.He was dumbstruck and could not utter a word. The prince, firm of mind, knew the glory of his brother Sri Ramachandra.
Sati kapatu janevu surswami/ Sabdarsy sab antarjami//
Sumirat jahi mitayi agyana/ Soyi sarbagya Ramu bhagwana//
The all pervasive, omniscient Ramji understood Sati’s subterfuge immediately. Sri Ramji is the Lord, on whose mere remembrance, all ignorance flees.
Sati keenh chah tahahu duravu/ Dekhavu nari subhav prabhavu//
Nij maya balu hridayam bakhani/ Bole bihasi Ramu mridu bani//
Satiji was trying to deceive the all-knowing Lord himself; she was showcasing the peculiarities of woman’s nature! Mulling over the power of his own maya, Lord Ram smilingly said …
Jori pani prabhu keenh pranamu/ Pita samet leenh nij namu//
Kahevu bahori kaham brishketu/ Bipin akeli firahu kehi hetu//
First, Lord Ram joined his hands together and reverently wished Satiji. Then he introduced himself, including the name of his father. Then he asked ‘Where is Lord Shiva? And why are you wandering through these forests all by yourself?’
Ram bachan mridu gudh suni upaja ati sankochu/
Sati sabhit mahes pahim chalim hridayam badh sochu//
Listening to Sri Ramji’s pleasant and mysterious words, Devi Sati became very perturbed. Terrified, she decided to return to Lord Shiva, her mind caught in deep anxiety.
Mai Sankar kar kaha na mana/ Nij agyanu Ram par aana//
Jayi utaru ab dehavu kaha/ Ur upaja ati darun daha//
‘I did not listen to my Lord Shiva and alleged that Sri Ramachandra was a mere human due to my ignorance. What answer shall I give Lord Shiv now?’ Brooding thus, Satiji felt herself burning due to great worry.
Jana Ram Satim dukhu pava/ Nij prabhavu kacchu pragati janava//
Satim deekh kautuk mag jata/ Aagem Ramu sahit shri bhrata//
Lord Ram understood that Devi Sati was unhappy and so conjured an enchantment to enlighten her about his true nature. Sati saw the Lord, accompanied by Sita and Lakshman walking through the forest.
Phiri chitva pachem prabhu dekha/ Sahit bandhu siya sundar besha//
Jah chitvahim tah prabhu aseena/ Sevahim siddh munees prabeena//
When Sati turned to take a backward glance, there was the Lord, again with Janakiji and his brother Lakshman! Wherever she turned, Satiji saw the resplendent Lord, with his wife and brother, served by many devoted sages.
Dekhe siv bidhi Bishnu aneka/ Amit prabhavu ek tem eka//
Bandat charan karat prabhu sewa/ Bibidhi besh dekhe sab deva//
Satiji saw innumerable Shiv, Brahma and Vishnu who were stunning in their glory. There were beautifully dressed devas who were reverently bowing at the feet of the beautiful Lord Ram.
Sati bidhatri indira dekhim amit anoop/
Jehim jehim besh ajadi sur tehi tehi tan anuroop//
Devi saw countless Sati, Brahmani and Lakshmi. In whichever form Brahma and other celestial gods were present, their Shakti equivalent (feminine powers) also manifested with them.
Dekhe jah tah Raghupati jete/ Saktinh sahit sakal sur tete//
Jeev charachar jo samsara/ Dekhe sakal anek prakara//
Wherever Sati saw Lord Rama, the Lord was surrounded by these countless forms of gods and goddesses. She saw all the living and non-living entities on the universe in multiple forms.
Soyi Raghubar soyi Lacchimanu Sita/ Dekhi Sati ati bhayi sabhita//
Hriday kamp tan sudhi kacchu nahim/ Nayan mudi baidi mag mahim//
Wherever she cast her eyes, the same beautiful manifestations of Lord Ram, Janakiji and Lakshman! Sati became terrified. Her body started trembling and all control over the senses seemed to be getting lost. Closing her eyes, Sati sat down on the path.
Bahuri bilokevu nayan ukhari/ Kacchu na deekh tah dacchkumari//
Puni puni nayi Ram pad seesa/ Chalim taham jaham rahe gireesa//
When she opened her eyes, the daughter of Daksha, could see nothing. Bowing her head before Lord Ram (in her mind) she returned to Lord Shiva.
Gayim samip Mahes tab hasi puchi kusalat/
Leenh pareecha kavan bidhi kahahu satya sab baat//
When Sati reached Lord Shiva’s side, he laughed and asked her to explain how she tried to test Sri Ramachandra.
Satim samuchi Raghubir prabhavu/ Bhay bas Siv san keenh duravu//
Kacchu na pareecha leenh gosayi/ Keenh pranamu tumharihu nayi//
Having been stunned by the glories of Lord Ram, petrified, Sati hid the truth from Lord Shiva. She said, ‘Hey Lord, I did not attempt any test. I just paid him my respects like you.’
Jo tumh kaha so mrisha na hoyi/ Morem mann prateeti ati soyi//
Tab Sankar dekhevu dhari dhyana/ Satim jo keenh charit sabu jana//
(Sati said) ‘What you pronounce shall never be wrong. I am very confident of that fact.’ Then Lord Shiv meditated and through his inner eyes watched whatever had transpired and how Sati had behaved.
Bahuri Ramamayahi siru nava/ Preri satihi jehim chhut kahava//
Hari iccha bhavi balwana/ Hridayam bicharat Sambhu sujana//
Lord Shiv bowed before Sri Hari’s Maya which made even Devi Sati utter lies. The Lord contemplated that the power of Sri Hari to assume any form was so great.
Satim keenh Sita kar besha/ Siv ur bhayavu bishad bisesha//
Jaum ab karavu Sati san preeti/ Mitayi bhagati padhu hoyi aneeti//
Knowing that Satiji assumed the guise of Sita herself, Lord Shiv felt very sad. He felt that if he continued to love Sati, it shall cause the path of Bhakti to end and usher injustice.
Param puneet na jayi taji kiyem prem badh papu/
Pragati na kahat mahesu kacchu hridayam adhik santapu//
(The Lord thought) ‘Sati is very pure and I cannot leave her. But if I love her, that will be a sin too.’ Lord Shiv was not saying anything, but his heart weighed heavy with unhappiness.
Tab Sankar prabhu pad siru nava/Sumirat Ramu hridayam as aava//
Ehim tan satihi bhet mohi nahim/ Siv sankalpu keenh mann mahim//
Lord Shiva bowed before Sri Ramachandra’s lotus feet in his heart. As soon as he remembered Sri Ramji, the thought arose in his mind that he cannot ever physically accept Sati as his wife anymore. Lord Shiva took that decision at that moment.
As bichari Sankaru matidheera/ Chale bhawan sumirat Raghubeera//
Chalat gagan bhai gira suhayi/ Jay Mahes bhali bhagati dridayi//
Remembering Sri Ram, Lord Shiv, renowned for steadiness of mind, returned to his abode in Kailas. When he moved, there was a celestial announcement ‘Lord Shiv, may you be forever glorious! You have shown exceptional firmness in your devotion.’
As pan tumh binu karayi ko aana/ Rambhagat samaradh bhagwana//
Suni nabhgira sati ur socha/ Poocha sivahi samet sakocha//
‘Who else but you can take such an oath? You are divine, a devotee of Sri Ram and all capable.’ Listening to the divine voice, Sati felt a sense of trepidation. She hesitantly asked Lord Shiv…’
Keenh kavan pan kahahu kripala/ Satyadham prabhu deendayala//
Jadapi Satim poocha bahu bhanti/ Tadapi na kahevu tripur aarati//
‘Compassionate Lord, tell me what oath have you taken? Lord, you are the epitome of truth and kindness incarnate.’ Though Sati pleaded in various ways, Lord Shiv did not respond.
Satim hridayam anuman kiya sabu janevu sarbagya/
Keenh kapatu mai Sambhu san naari sahaj jad agya//
Sati understood that Lord Shiva knew everything which had occurred. ‘I have deceived Lord Shiv. I exhibited the foolish and non-discerning nature of women!’
Jalu pay sarees bikayi dekhahu preeti ki reeti bhali/
Bilag hoyi rasu jayi kapat khatayi parat puni//
The enchanting way of love is interesting: water mixing with milk gets sold at the same price…whereas, with the passage of time, the milk curdles due to the impurity and the taste (purity of love) is slowly lost.
Hridayam sochu samuchat nij karni/ Chinta amit jayi nahim barni//
Kripasindhu siv param agadha/ Pragat na kahevu mor aparadha//
Sati’s regret over her own mistrustful actions was so much that it cannot be described. (She thought) ‘Lord Shiv being an ocean of compassion, shall never openly speak to me about my misdeeds’.
Sankar rukh avaloki Bhawani/ Prabhu mohi tajevu hridayam akulani//
Nij akh samuchi na kachu kahi jayi/ Tapayi avam iv ur adhikayi//
Seeing Lord Shiv’s demeanour, Sati understood intuitively that he had discarded her from his heart. She was extremely worried. Sati could not speak up about her error but like the fire inside the potter’s kiln, her heart was burning in agony.
Satihi sasoch jani brishketu/ Kahim kadha sundar sukhhetu//
Barnat pandh bibidhi itihasa/ Biswanadh pahunche kailasa//
Sensing that his wife was perturbed, Lord Shiv narrated many beautiful stories to soothe her. In this way, elaborating on various Itihasas, Lord Shiva reached his abode, Kailasa.
Tah puni sambhu samuchi pan apan/ Baide battar kari kamalasan//
Sankar sahaj sasroop samhara/ Laagi samadhi akhand apara//
Remembering his oath, Lord Shiv sat down for meditation, in lotus posture, under a banyan tree. He assumed his mendicant form and immersed himself in deep spiritual trance.
Sati basahim kailas tab adhik sochu mann mahim/
Marmu na kovu jaan kachu jug sam divas sirahim//
Satiji lived in Kailas, her mind fraught with misery. Nobody knew the secretive happenings. Each day passed like an aeon (yuga) for Sati.
Nit nav sochu sati urb hara/ Kab jaihavu dukh sagar para//
Mai jo keenh raghupati apamana/ Puni patibachanu mrisha kari jana//
Every moment new and heavy thoughts germinated in Sati’s mind about crossing the ocean of sorrows. ‘I humiliated Sri Ramachandra and mistrusted my husband’s wise counsel…’
So phalu mohi bidhatam deenha/ Jo kachu uchit raha soyi keenha//
Ab bidhi as boochiya nahim tohi/ Sankar bimukh jiavasi mohi//
( Sati thought ) Destiny has rewarded me with just results ( the fruits of my action). But, Lord, it is not right that I continue to be alive when my beloved Lord Shiva has turned his face away from me.’
Kahi na jayi kachu hriday glani/ Mann mahu ramahi sumir sayani//
Jaum prabhu deendayalu kahava/ Aarati haran bedh jasu gava//
One cannot describe the pain inside Sati’s heart. The intelligent Devi prayed to Sri Ramji. ‘Dear Lord, you are the epitome of compassion. The Vedas hail you as the remover of all sorrows…’
Tau mai binay karavu kar jori/ Chutavu begi deh yeh mori//
Jaum morem siv charan sanehu/ Mann kram bachan satya bratu ehu//
‘Now I plead that I lose this mortal body of mine (to which my husband become averse). If my love, surrendered at Lord Shiva’s feet, is pure, if in my heart, words and actions, I have been true to that love, then…’
Tau sabadrasi sunia prabhu karavu so begi upayi/
Hoyi maranu jehim binahim shram dussah bipati bihayi//
‘Lord who is all-knowing, provide a solution that I die and this insufferable disaster (where my husband has renounced me as his wife) no longer exists.’
Ehi bidhi dukhiat prajeskumari/ Akadhaneey darun dukhu bhari//
Bitem sambat sahas satasi/ Taji samadhi sambhu abinasi//
The daughter of Daksha was in excruciating agony which cannot be put in words. After 87,000 years, Lord Shiva opened his eyes, awaking from his meditation (samadhi).
Ram naam siv sumiran laage/ Janevu satim jagpati jaage//
Jayi sambhu pad bandanu keenha/ Sanmukh sankar asan deenha//
When Lord Shiv started chanting Sri Ramji’s name, Sati recognised that the Lord had woken up from his meditation. When she approached her husband and bowed before him, Lord Shiv offered her a seat by his side.